Can you hear God's voice?

© May 2012

Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I was driving to work. My husband and I had argued the night before. We weren't doing well, our marriage was falling apart. Both of us were unhappy. I was threatening that if he didn't change, I would leave him. He didn't believe me and continued doing as he pleased. My friends were advising me to leave him. The counselor I was going to for help was telling me the same thing.

My husband was controlling and demanding. He kept yelling at me, hurting me with words.

There were so many voices running through my mind - The insistant ones of friends, the angry voice of my husband, my mom's of caring, my dad's of frustration, mine of desperation. But where was God's voice? I needed all the others to quiet down, maybe if they would all hush, I'd be able to hear the one voice I needed to hear over all the others.

What did God want me to do? I had grown up in a Christian home. Marriage was supposed to last.

"Lord, all my friends are telling me what I need to do, but I don't know if they're right. I want to do what you want, not what anyone else tells me I should do, just what you want God. Please help me. I need to hear your voice. Close my ears to anyone else that is giving advise to me that is contrary to your will, Lord Jesus. Let me hear you and recognise your voice in my life."

I got to work and in the business of my day, forgot about my prayer.

Lunch time came and Bill the old housekeeper who had retired about a year earlier dropped by. He was excited, he'd just gotten back from his first trip to Jereselum. He was about 70 years old. I was glad to see him. He didn't stay long though because he had other friends to see during his short visit. When he left I didn't expect to see him again and was surprised when he popped his head back into my office to give me something.

"God wanted me to give you this" he said with a smile. It was a CD.

"What's on it?" I asked him.

"Oh, it's just a song" he said, "I can only imagine".

I put the CD into the drive on my computer and began to listen to the words "Will I dance with you Jesus, will I fall to my knees, I can only imagine what it will be like..."

The tears were falling again, this time happy tears...I heard Him finally, speaking to me directly through the words of that song. Yes - Jesus was telling me that there's something better in the future for me. You see, we're only here in this world for a short time, and when we leave this place...Well, we can only imagine what it will be like when we meet Him face to face!